Every single day I think about this blog. I have a list of blog ideas to write this summer. I have “blogging at least one time every week” as a summer goal. But it’s just not happening. I know I just need to get back into the swing of it, find my voice again, but so much has changed.
I don’t crochet at all these days and haven’t for months. Today I was on Pinterest and did get a little twinge of envy when I saw some pieces I really liked, but not enough to pick up a hook and yarn. It feels like an old friend that I lost touch with. I hope when the weather cools off we can reunite.
I have been on such a health kick that my fibromyalgia seems to be hiding…but the superstition in me is sure it is just waiting for its opportunity to knock me down. The absence of severe discomfort has made me question, yet again, my diagnosis. How can I feel this good?! Finally, for the first time in years, I am not just surviving, I am actually living. My mood is good, my energy is decent, my brain is focused and clear, I walk miles every day and I am losing weight steadily. The only time my fibromyalgia shows its face is during the various hormonal changes due to my cycle. Then the aches, strange skin zaps and energy drains creep up around the peripheral and remind me to rest. I’m always a little shocked that its only one day and doesn’t turn into a reason to abandon my fitness goals. But then I remember the stories from others who had months of relief only to slide back into hell eventually. I guess I don’t want to talk about it because I don’t want to jinx it.
Its summer and my days consist of walking my dog, watching my daughter ride her bike like a champ, gardening, health goals and bullet journaling. It’s so lazy and so freaking delicious. I’ve already prepped everything for our 4th grade homeschool, so nothing is hanging over me except a few house-to-do projects. I was sure I would be blogging by now…but I keep finding reasons not to, I mean…what would I write about!
I hope everyone is enjoying their summer! ❤